2012 Resolutions

Well it's that time of year where we make a list of "resolutions" or "promises" that I don't think I've ever managed to keep. So, this year, I've created a list that I think qualify as good resolutions but also ones that I'll actually be able to accomplish - if I try.

1. Be financially stable

Well this is it, my last six months at university before I join the rest of the world in the rat race that is finding a job, a place to live and just starting my own life. It's going to be difficult and I can sense that many tantrums, tears and failures are going to be ahead of me but if I start saving now then surely it makes it slightly easier in the long run. Also, learning how to be financially stable now while I still have the support of my parents' will set me up for later life when I truly am alone and wanting to start a family.

2. Job Hunt

To be financially stable (aka resolution 1) I have to job hunt. I want to work abroad on a cruise ship or in a hotel. I just want to be able to get out of the UK and say that I have done something with my life other than education. Ihate being in education, I want to work but there's just no work any more but I'm not going to give up. I shall do any kind of job because I'm not fussed. Barmaid, cleaner, warehouse worker. You name it and I shall try my best to do that job to the standard it requires. It's just such a shame most jobs now require you to have experience before you can get a job but to get experience, you need the job! It's such an unfair cycle.

3. Stick to the Diet I'm on

I started this blog several years ago and probably every New Year I state a resolution of “Lose Weight” and every single year I fail. Now, however, there's one plus side to this because I no longer care that I'm overweight. Well I care but not enough where losing weight controls my life because I don't want to be that girl any more. I have overcome bulimia, overcome my fears of wearing nice clothes and even wear my hair down now because baby, big girls are beautiful.

4. Blog Weekly

Well the first two years of my blog here is jam packed with entries but then in the later years, it's dwindled. This, my lovely friends, is going to change. I promise that I shall try to update at least once a week even if my week is extremely boring. I don't see the point of having such a beautiful blog – because God knows I put enough effort into changing the fonts, changing the books/TV shows I'm watching every time they change – if I'm not going to use it for the purpose I created it which was to blog!

5. Study More

As previously stated, this is my last six months at university and by god has it been a gruesome two years and a half. I've failed, dropped out and felt extremely homesick but along the way I've found the world's greatest friends, had moments that will live with me forever and basically had the time of my life so I wouldn't change it for the world but also there's a point where the fun needs to stop and the studying begins. This year, I want to pass with flying colours and know that even if I do fail on the first time, I bloody well tried to pass.

6. Speak to Family/Friends More

I've become a recluse in the past few months. I even get out of socialising with my friends in Scotland just so I can lie in my bed and watch endless T.V shows because that's the way I've always been but it's not the way to live. Over the two years, I've lost all my friends in Doncaster and they're now all in Ayr so why wouldn't I make an effort? If I have to return to Doncaster once the year is up, I'm going to be left friendless because I don't like the people down here so I need to make an effort both with keeping my friends and the job hunt. It's a must! Also my family, they've sacrificed so much and yet I sometimes don't bother talking to them because when they do phone they drive me crazy! It's more like they're having a conversation between them and I'm an outsider listening in! It's not fair, it really isn't. But I shall try. On both accounts.

7. Write More

I've always wanted to write. I might not be any good but that doesn't matter because I just enjoy writing. I enjoy seeing characters I've created come alive on paper even if the scenarios are ridiculous. However, I'm going to make a new rule. I'm going to write for me and me alone. I've noticed recently I've started writing for friends and that's not fair. I should be able to write what I want to write, when I want to write and what story I want to write. I'm the author. I can end a story, kill a character or create a series if I want to but... Meh. Sometimes the fun of writing disappears because people are always constantly plaguing me with “have you written?” “how far have you got?” “maybe you should write...” if you want it to happen, you write it. I'm going to write, what I want to write, at least three times a week for two hours.

8. Read More

I've always been an avid reader. I was reading my dad's westerns when I was just in Nursery but recently I've forgotten the art of picking up a book and lying in my bed with no sound to just read. I've become a couch potato that would rather lie in bed watching a TV series and it saddens me. I have mountains of books of all genres just lying about in this house and they all go untouched. My new plan is to read at least one book a week – varying because a girl needs to be educated and that comes from reading more than just crime novels as grannie would say.

Through resolution 4, you'll all be kept up to date (hopefully) with my progress on pretty much every resolution that I have stated here but like I state, for that to happen, resolution 4 needs to happen!

I hope you all had a fantastic New Year!